tales of a sober lad

June 10, 2009

A(H1N1) Update 4

afraid2As of today, June 10, 2009, the Department of Health (DOH) has declared 77 confirmed cases of A(H1N1) Influenza Virus in the Philippines, 15 of which are students from my school, De La Salle University – Manila. Many are wondering whether or not school would resume on June 15, but as of the moment, the university has not announced anything regarding such matter.

Source: Inquirer

June 5, 2009

A(H1N1) Update 3

scaredA new A(H1N1) Influenza virus case has been confirmed by the DOH at the De La Salle University. I heard that the DOH contacted all the students that may have had a close encounter with the first two victims. The new carrier of the said virus is a 17-year old male, who happened to be clueless as to whether or not he had close contact with the Japanese students. To be quite honest, many students are now paranoid because the number of DLSU A(H1N1) cases is slowly growing in number. All students are now advised to quarantine themselves so as not to unconsciously spread the virus.

Source: Inquirer

 

UPDATE:

Total number of DLSU A(H1N1) cases is now 4. A friend has confirmed this to me, but I still need to find sources that will support this claim. The reliable source said that the new victim is now at the Makati Medical Center. Let’s pray for that person’s quick recovery. I shall blog again later for more details.

June 2, 2009

just when i thought i was happy

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42-15810276All the while, I thought this was real. Too bad, it wasn’t. I guess I’ll just try my luck again next time when I’m better. Or maybe I’ll just wait for that right person to come. But I’m tired of waiting. Maybe, just maybe, next time, I’ll just let things happen. I would not expect anything, so there would be no more disappointments. Hayyyy. This is depressing. I shall stop now. Till then.

March 7, 2009

Seriously…

Filed under: Uncategorized — crossedfingers @ 3:52 pm

I’m scared.

January 1, 2009

au revoir 08, bonjour 09

Filed under: Uncategorized — crossedfingers @ 11:26 am

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Happy New Year to all!

2008 has been great. Although there were a bunch of mishaps that have happened, I still feel happy with all the blessings that I have received. Right now, all I want to do is to thank the people who have surprisingly made my year 2008 better than the previous years. You guys know who you are. I can’t name you all because it would just be time-consuming. But anyway, I love you all! Hope 2009 will be great for all of us. Let’s make more memories this year!!!

December 6, 2008

stochastic sulks

Filed under: Uncategorized — crossedfingers @ 11:16 am

Ever wondered why even though how hard we try, and how much we have succeeded, everything seems to be not enough? And that you still feel lonely at the end of the day despite of the number of people you interact with moment by moment.

Well, as I was sitting at the end of my room, looking at the sunset as its yellow-orange-ish sunlight passes through my windows; I can’t help but reflect on how my life has been lately, or even in the last couple of years. As I was browsing through the pages of the book that a friend lent me, I noticed that the story seems to be not getting anywhere in my system. It’s as if my mind is preoccupied with something else: something that has been bothering me lately that I actually can neither describe nor explain.

But after a while of ignorance and a little mix of paranoia and disturbance, I somehow finally had a theory. Just like a cloud, which has an erratic form, drifting through the skies without actually having a fixed destination, I find myself having no destination as well.

Throughout the course of my existence, I have been semi-obliged to do things in order to have a good life. Semi because I firmly believe that I was still able to do things my way, having my own disposition determine the decisions and actions that I have made. But why am I doing all these things for? I mean, yeah, I do this and that in order to have a good future. But what the hell is there for me in the future? Like seriously, can you tell me now how your life would be like 20 years from now? Or what would happen to me next year, or even tomorrow? Would I have 10 children and 3 wives? Or would I become a filthy rich man living alone? Come on! Spill it to me now if you know it! But if not, then think about yours!

So now I’m confused. I just wish that there’s a way for me to see, even just for a peek, how things are going to be once I turn 30 or 35 because in one way or another, it could definitely give me a little push to really work hard. Because now that I feel like life has been living me, instead of me living my life, I find it hard to exert some effort in reaching my aspirations.

So pretty much, drinking almost every week, smoking cigarettes once in a while and partying every now and then has been my routine lately because it seems that these three have been my life’s remaining pleasures.

So to put things simply, I have nowhere to go. Add to that is the feeling of how much I feel so fucked up.

Well, I guess I’m just a failure.

Only God knows how hard I tried to please everyone. But I guess I have already reached my satiation point.

I think it’s already just time for me to take care of myself and please myself first before I start pleasing other people again.

But on second thought, I think I would not bother pleasing other people anymore because it’s really just a matter of acceptance. It’s like it’s either you like me or not.

Anyway, I’ll end it here. I’m a little high right now, which explains my random, weird thoughts. And just so you know, I’m not into drugs okay? This entry is merely a result of my natural highness.

And by the way, I so fucking hate ^$#$%#$! That person really brings the worst in me and makes me feel weird things, especially when things are actually fine. Hmmp. Bye!

November 14, 2008

constant change

Filed under: Uncategorized — Tags: — crossedfingers @ 5:42 am

Buongiorno! Here I am again, wondering and wandering.

A new blog is born and baptized as I try to compose myself, yet again, after incurring a tremendous amount of inflictions from my past. The need for a new outlet seems to be vital in order for me to function with normalcy. That is why I find it just essential to move on. 

My past blogs (yeah, I already had two: one from blogspot and another from livejournal) cover at least a brief part, or a chapter, of my life. Each one apparently holds the different misfortunes, as well as a bit of the good things that I have had in the past months, or years. And though some blog posts were a product of my insanity, paranoia, and bothersome, each one was still composed with sheer honesty.

But enough of that. I am now about to begin another chapter, which I promise to be very different. This time, I will do things my way. No more hesitations, no more what-ifs, and no more regrets from now on. Everything that will be written here will be emanated with full honesty. Thus, if ever anything here causes you pain or hurts you in one way or another, I would not be held responsible. It is, or was, whichever applies, your choice to read my entries anyway.

So I guess this is the mark of this blog’s beginning.

Cheers!

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