tales of a sober lad

December 13, 2008

lose control

Filed under: Rants — Tags: , , , — crossedfingers @ 10:49 am

Today is officially a bad day for me. For one, I was not able to go to school because my alarm failed to wake me up, yet again. I was supposed to give the umbrella back to Nikole because he left it yesterday. However, since I woke up so freaking late, I think I will only be able to return it back to him when we meet again, which is probably next year because he will be off to China with some of my blockmates on the 17th.

Anyway, since school has already been crossed out in my to-do list, I just instead went to the salon to have my stylist cut my 3-month old, long, bulky and irritating hair. Upon arriving, my stylist asked me about what I want to do with my hair. I clearly told him that I want it to be short, but not too short. Then he just smiled and started cutting. And after some 25 magical minutes of styling and cutting, my hair is finally short. The bad part though is the fact that my stylist cut it too short. Like really, really short! And I hate it. I was like panicking after seeing the result. But there’s nothing I can do about it, so I just immediately left the salon after paying for my haircut.  (Ok now I’m regretting the fact that I still gave him a tip even if he was too deaf and stupid to comprehend what I ordered him to do with my hair. Ugh.) Anyway, after leaving the salon, I hurriedly went to the restroom to fix my hair on my own. But unfortunately, it’s too short that I can’t even style it.

Dammit! I’m really just so irritated with how things went out today. Honestly, I just want to scream right now so as to release the negative energies flowing inside my body. I seriously cannot imagine things to get a lot worse anymore. I badly need to sidetrack my attention on something else in order to feel better. I guess I’ll just resort to eating and sleeping. A bum’s life is, without a doubt, always a good cure anyway.

November 15, 2008

gloom and doom

Filed under: Random — Tags: — crossedfingers @ 11:48 am

One dusky morning welcomed me as I opened my eyes today, with pillows scattered everywhere; one even pressing against my face. I reached for my phone and looked at the time, and to my surprise, it was just four in the morning. My body clock seemed to be failing me lately, waking me up in the most unlikely times of the day. Just yesterday, I woke up at around one in the afternoon, and then the day before that, I got up around eight in the morning, all without the use of alarms.

In any way, I tried to get back to my sleep by covering my face with a pillow, while thinking of sleepy thoughts. But unfortunately, my system and my body would not cooperate.

I reached for my phone again and noticed an unread message. Upon checking it, I was surprised to see the content of the message. It came from Eyes (not the real name). Eyes’ message contains 3 words with 8 letters. Go figure! And in my mind, I was like “Seriously???” I could not help but be pissed by what Eyes has just sent me. Not that I’m trying to be bitter or whatever, I just don’t get it. I did not reply to Eyes’ message by the way.

All the while, I thought it was already over between the two of us. I thought two weeks of no communication signifies the end of everything. I thought we both have moved on already. In short, I thought it was over. But I guess I was wrong.

For what it’s worth, I tried to not mind the whole morning disaster.

And now that the sun has already set, I could not help but think of the reasons behind the message. I’m pretty sure that it’s not just something random, that it’s not just because Eyes wanted to fool me, and it’s not just because Eyes wanted me to feel bad about everything.

But I should not care.

It’s just sad that all these had to happen today, when I am supposed to rest and unwind from the busy life that I have.

And it was even a gloomy day for me, which is kind of disappointing because I expected to at least have fun today since I have the whole house all to myself.

Too bad for me. I guess I will just try my luck next time. And just hope that I will get the rest that I deserve. 

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