tales of a sober lad

November 23, 2008

route to stress

Filed under: Random — Tags: , , — crossedfingers @ 5:30 pm

18 years ago, I was just a tiny fetus inside my mum’s womb, exceptionally excited to see what’s in store for me in the outside world, without having to worry about the complications of life.

17 years ago, I was just a tiny infant curiously trying to learn how to balance my walk whilst trying to not acquire any wound that may leave scars on my skin.

16 years ago, I was just a child energetically running around in circles, unconsciously trying to bump everyone who gets in my way without getting spanked by another kid.

15 years ago, I was just a child annoyingly crying for candies because mum would not allow me to have one because she said candies are bad for my teeth.

14 years ago, I was just a kid seriously trying to memorize the alphabet, so dad would not force me to recite it in front of them repeatedly every night without committing any faults.

13 years ago, I was just a kid gleefully trying to enjoy all the toys in my room, especially my toy cars and my puzzles, without even worrying about how dainty my room would be.

12 years ago, I was just an unruly brother, viciously trying to hurt my brother because he likes to play with my toys.

11 years ago, I was just a bully classmate, naughtily trying to make other kids cry because I basically didn’t like them.

10 years ago, I was just a religious visitor of the guidance office because my behaviour seemed to piss everyone, even my teachers.

9 years ago, I was a changed child. At that time, I was one of the most respected persons in town.

9 years after those 9 years ago, I am already a college student, trying to finish all my requirements, so as to graduate in time. However, it’s not THAT easy. Believe me. Whoever said college life is a piece of a cake must be gravely locked in the mental hospital right now. And he must be dying of regret for saying such statement. Or maybe he’s already a victim of a homicide case due to the countless stabs college students inflicted on him.

And oh, trust me, suicidal thoughts continuously cross my mind every time I see the writings on my planner getting squeezed by each other. It’s as if there are no available spaces to write on. All the sleepless nights and never-ending papers inevitably contribute to the undying stress that I incur every day. The black circles around my eyes are certainly not caused by aging, but by the enormous lack of sleep and voluntary widening of the eye. Caffeine must have not given up on me yet. And it’s distressing to know that because nothing can really lull me to slumber. Gosh! Even the most boring song can’t make me hate the thought of being awake. (Shout out to OPM songs! LOL.)

Growing old can really be tough most of the times. Though many people suggest that enjoying life can make things better, given all the externalities present nowadays, saying it is way much easier than doing it actually.

Oh how I wish I am still a one-year old infant, wherein all I’ll think about is how to walk and how to say properly my first word. Or maybe a 5-year old kid, wherein all I’ll think about is how to play all my toys at the same time, without worrying about breaking any rules or anything of the kind.

Time really flies. I just hope my wings are always ready to fly as well. And I hope it’s always clean. Who wants a dirty wing, anyway? LOL.

November 15, 2008

trench coats

Filed under: Fashion — Tags: — crossedfingers @ 5:35 pm

Trench coats are definitely hot! And when you are someone like me who lives in a tropical country like the Philippines, they can literally be hot to wear. But in anyway, I still love trench coats because it adds to the sophistication of anyone who wears it. Just make sure that the cut and the design is right, and that you have the height to wear it. Personally, I think trench coats are to be worn by people over 6 feet. Otherwise, you would look like someone who just got out of the shower. Get what I mean?

Anyway, since one of my friends, who will be off to China this December, is trying to look for a good trench coat, here are some of my suggestions. 

burberry-trenchThis very chic trench coat shown above is from Burberry, the known pioneer for such genius creation. This is a double-breasted belted trench coat made out of cotton. The simplicity of the design and the chicness of the cut would surely accentuate and level-up one’s style. 









hugo-trench-coatThis lambskin leather trench coat shown above is just perfect. The classic double-breasted trench is given a twist by the leather that it is made of, which can totally add to the sophistication of your look. This one’s from Hugo Boss by the way.









photolarge28985This last piece is from Bill Tornade. This belted wool trench coat with a plaid pattern throughout gives me the goosebumps. The whole get-up represents the union of the modern man and the classic, sophisticated man, which is very unlikely nowadays.  So hats off to Bill Tornade for this wonderful piece.

Gosh! I wish I could wear one of these someday. But anyway, I really love the Burberry trench coat!

Photo Credits: Stylehive

chasing pavements, adele

Filed under: Music — Tags: , , — crossedfingers @ 4:29 pm


I’ve made up my mind. Don’t need to think it over. If I’m wrong I am right. Don’t need to look no further. This ain’t lust. I know this is love

But if I tell the world I’ll never say enough ’cause it was not said to you. And that’s exactly what I need to do if I end up with you.  

Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements. Even if it leads nowhere or would it be a waste. Even if I knew my place should I leave it there. Should I give up or should I just keep chasing pavements. Even if it leads nowhere 

-Chasing Pavements, Adele

This song has been playing in my mind these past few days. Adele’s unique sound provides and leaves a different feeling to me that I just can’t help but feel good about everything.

I still don’t know how to insert an audio file here, so I suggest that you search the song in Youtube or wherever. In any way, click here for the Youtube link.

gloom and doom

Filed under: Random — Tags: — crossedfingers @ 11:48 am

One dusky morning welcomed me as I opened my eyes today, with pillows scattered everywhere; one even pressing against my face. I reached for my phone and looked at the time, and to my surprise, it was just four in the morning. My body clock seemed to be failing me lately, waking me up in the most unlikely times of the day. Just yesterday, I woke up at around one in the afternoon, and then the day before that, I got up around eight in the morning, all without the use of alarms.

In any way, I tried to get back to my sleep by covering my face with a pillow, while thinking of sleepy thoughts. But unfortunately, my system and my body would not cooperate.

I reached for my phone again and noticed an unread message. Upon checking it, I was surprised to see the content of the message. It came from Eyes (not the real name). Eyes’ message contains 3 words with 8 letters. Go figure! And in my mind, I was like “Seriously???” I could not help but be pissed by what Eyes has just sent me. Not that I’m trying to be bitter or whatever, I just don’t get it. I did not reply to Eyes’ message by the way.

All the while, I thought it was already over between the two of us. I thought two weeks of no communication signifies the end of everything. I thought we both have moved on already. In short, I thought it was over. But I guess I was wrong.

For what it’s worth, I tried to not mind the whole morning disaster.

And now that the sun has already set, I could not help but think of the reasons behind the message. I’m pretty sure that it’s not just something random, that it’s not just because Eyes wanted to fool me, and it’s not just because Eyes wanted me to feel bad about everything.

But I should not care.

It’s just sad that all these had to happen today, when I am supposed to rest and unwind from the busy life that I have.

And it was even a gloomy day for me, which is kind of disappointing because I expected to at least have fun today since I have the whole house all to myself.

Too bad for me. I guess I will just try my luck next time. And just hope that I will get the rest that I deserve. 

November 14, 2008

fashion must-haves

Filed under: Fashion — Tags: , , , , — crossedfingers @ 1:14 pm

God knows how long it has been since I last shopped for new clothes. And thank God ‘coz tomorrow will be my shopping day, thanks to my mum. Yay for me! Anyway, if i were to be given an unlimited amount of moolah tomorrow, I would prefer buying the ones I saw in GQ earlier today. As of the moment, I am loving these pieces.

formal look

This two-button suit is the “in” thing nowadays. It gives a slimmer and a much more elegant look with its fresh and young cut. So what are you waiting for? Get one now! This suit is by Boss Selection from Hugo Boss.









casual wear

For a comfortable casual wear, this ensemble is just perfect. A cardigan on top of a shirt with a tie gives a somehow preppy look, which is balanced by the simplicity of the shorts. However, since I live here in a third world country called Philippines, wearing this ensemble would be like wearing nothing in a snow day. In other words, or to put it simply, I would only sweat like hell if I wear this. I just wish I am in Europe right now. Anyway, this cotton cardigan is by Hilifiger Denim.

These two styles are so on top of my list now. I just wish I have enough moolah to purchase everything. Oh well, that would be it for now.

Photo credits: GQ

a shawl of security

Filed under: Random — Tags: — crossedfingers @ 11:47 am

A friend once told me to always keep track of my true friends. When I asked him why, he basically told me to just do it. Now, I cannot help but think of who to genuinely trust. I have a long list of friends, and a number of close friends, but the number is too overwhelming to narrow down and assess.

If you were to ask me to identify the people who I consider my true friends, I would probably answer you with a sigh. It is not because of the bogus fact that I do not actually consider anyone, but it would most likely be because of the fact that I have not really thought about it. I can give you like three people right now, and then the rest would be subjected for consideration. 

To name the three, oh yeah, I forgot, I will not drop names here so as to not create conflicts. So anyway, I would just describe them and use code names.

First one would be Twin. We have only been friends for less than 3 years and I must say Twin has been one of the people who I have become comfortable with. Twin and I share a lot of commonalities, thus the name Twin. From the food we eat to the style of fashion we adore, we basically like the same thing. On the other hand, with regards to our personal lives, we try to share with each other both our down and happy moments. We consider ourselves as each other’s outlets whenever we want to let something out of our system, especially when we have negative thoughts or feelings towards something or someone. 

And when one of us is wrong, or when one of us is trying to prove something that is merely nonsensical, we try to be as objective as possible to correct each other’s mistakes. Though we have encountered some scuffles in the past, which by the way really took a toll on me and on our friendship, I am just glad to have Twin with me. I really could not imagine my life without Twin. But I am guessing that a life without Twin would be like a life living without a pair of legs, or an ear, or an eye, or a middle finger (you could not just fuck off someone, ha-ha). I could say a lot more about Twin, but I would just leave it to that.

The second person would be…BigBro. I could not really think of a better name, but I guess BigBro would perfectly fit him. As the name would suggest, I look up to him as my big brother. In my entire existence in this planet, I have never, ever had a big brother to look up to. That is why I feel so lucky to have him with me, though there were times when we often have disagreements on things. But nevertheless, his presence compensates for every misunderstanding that we have had in the past.

The last person would be BigSis. Uh-uh, you guessed it right! Ever since my sister got married and left, she has been the one who somehow have replaced the position of my biological sister. Her words of wisdom never failed to make me realize the things that I should be thankful for. Her small pep talks regarding my problems have always helped me remain sane and far from being paranoid. That is why even though we spend less time with each other, I feel lucky to have her in my life.

Well…that would be it. Three is not bad, right? By the way, for the record, I am not saying that my other close friends are not true to me or whatever. Let’s just say that I have not really fully realized their genuineness towards me as of the moment. But who knows, time makes things happen.

Anyway, what I am trying to say here is that it is important to recognize the people who we truly care for and who truly care for us. But I’m telling you, it’s not that easy to identify those people because sometimes they are not actually the kind of people we believe they are. But hey, it’s only a matter of trusting the right people, so go ahead! Don’t doubt, just believe!

constant change

Filed under: Uncategorized — Tags: — crossedfingers @ 5:42 am

Buongiorno! Here I am again, wondering and wandering.

A new blog is born and baptized as I try to compose myself, yet again, after incurring a tremendous amount of inflictions from my past. The need for a new outlet seems to be vital in order for me to function with normalcy. That is why I find it just essential to move on. 

My past blogs (yeah, I already had two: one from blogspot and another from livejournal) cover at least a brief part, or a chapter, of my life. Each one apparently holds the different misfortunes, as well as a bit of the good things that I have had in the past months, or years. And though some blog posts were a product of my insanity, paranoia, and bothersome, each one was still composed with sheer honesty.

But enough of that. I am now about to begin another chapter, which I promise to be very different. This time, I will do things my way. No more hesitations, no more what-ifs, and no more regrets from now on. Everything that will be written here will be emanated with full honesty. Thus, if ever anything here causes you pain or hurts you in one way or another, I would not be held responsible. It is, or was, whichever applies, your choice to read my entries anyway.

So I guess this is the mark of this blog’s beginning.


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